My raison d'etre.

I think a lot about time. My time. Other people's time. The universe and time.

A beautiful movie that I really like that illustrates this to the extreme is "In Time." It's pretty wild.

The average human life expectancy is 72.98 years globally. In Canada, it’s 81.30 years.

That’s about 4,000 weeks.

Not infinite, but not nothing.

Somewhere in those weeks, you grow up. You find work. You build relationships. You chase meaning, purpose, maybe even greatness.

And at some point, if you’re paying attention, you start to ask:

• What am I actually doing with this time?

• What trade-offs am I making without realizing it?

• What game am I really playing?

Because that’s the truth most people don’t see—everything is a trade.

Not just in money or career, but in how you spend your energy, your focus, your life.

Every choice is a negotiation, not just with the world, but with yourself.

With your potential. Your beliefs. Your long-term self, the one waiting for you in 10, 20, 50 years.

I think about that a lot.

Why I Do What I Do: I want to leave the world better than I found it.

First: my modus operandi.

I don’t believe in waiting for things to happen.

I don’t believe in outsourcing responsibility. I do believe deeply in luck, in timing, in circumstances. But to a certain extent there's agency.

I believe in radical ownership.

If something isn’t working, I want to change it.

If I don’t have the skills and I've deemed them useful, I want to learn them or tap into / harness the collective genius of others who have them.

If the game is rigged, I almost want to build a new one.

That’s how I approach everything:

Work. I want to build things that matter, things that last.

Personal growth. I want to expand—not just in knowledge, but in understanding.

Recreation. I don’t just want to work—I want to experience, explore, and play.

Spirituality. I want to think deeply, to question, to see beyond the surface.

Relationships. I want a multi-dimensional life partner, a wife, by my side to experience life. To become that power couple everyone talks about.

Not because anyone is making me.

Not because there’s a finish line.

But because I see life as an infinite negotiation with time and potential.

Everything is a trade.

Every yes is a no to something else.

I want to make sure I’m trading for the right things.

“Play stupid games, win stupid prizes.”

The world conditions people to play status games, career games, consumption games—games that, when you zoom out, don’t really matter.

I’m interested in playing long games.

Games that compound.

Games that lead somewhere meaningful.

The Privilege and Duty of Existing

There's a really stunning visual called what are the odds. It estimates our odds of being alive, showing they are just a fraction above zero, or 1 in 10^2,685,000 if you like math. We are so lucky to be alive.

I think if I'm lucky enough to be here, if I have the ability to do something meaningful—then I have the responsibility to do it.

I don’t see that as a burden.

I see it as a privilege.

Somewhere between ambition and humility, there’s a space where I recognize:

The world doesn’t owe me anything. But I owe the world something.

I’m not interested in passive existence.

I want to build, contribute, explore, and push the limits of what I can do.

That’s not a “career path.” That’s just how I’m wired.

The Long Game: Compounding is exponential.

The more I learn, the more I realize:

The best things in life compound over decades, not months.

• $500k compounded over 40 years at 15% gets you to a ~ billionaire net worth (under money), albeit under nominal dimensions (without accounting for inflation).

• 40 year marriages are beautiful, deep and profound. The thousands of days, stories, meals together, mornings, trials and tribulations, and points of existence.

• The # of connections between nodes exponentially increase as you add to the pool.

• As one develops more mastery, the realization of results get compressed across closer units of time and that compounds at scale.

Wealth. Relationships. Knowledge. Mastery.

None of it happens overnight.

None of it happens by accident.

I don’t want to build things that just work for now.

I want to build things that outlast me.

That means investing in:

Work that matters over time.

Relationships that deepen instead of fade.

Knowledge that gets richer with every iteration.

I don’t care about quick wins.

I care about playing a game that gets better the longer I play it.

I want to be a polymath.

I don’t want to just accumulate knowledge—I want to synthesize it across disciplines.

If I were to look towards history and even those who are still alive, a few come to mind:

• Richard Feynman (Physics): Mastered science but also storytelling, humor, and curiosity.

• Leonardo da Vinci (Art, Anatomy, Engineering): Understood that the future belongs to those who bridge disciplines.

• Paul Graham (Y Combinator): Writes about the world as if explaining it to his past self—clarity as the highest form of intelligence.

I don’t want to be just one thing.

I want to be a system of overlapping skills and insights.

“You have to understand many things well before you can understand one thing deeply.” — Richard Feynman

Research shows that self authorship improves that person's existence, increases performances & likelihood of getting where one wants to go.

I don’t have all the answers.

But I know the questions I’m chasing:

How do I solve problems that matter?

How do I build systems that outlast me?

How do I live in a way that maximizes both ambition and meaning?

I don’t think there’s a single path.

I think there are many.

But I do know this:

The clock is ticking.

The trade-offs are happening.

And I’d rather be fully in it, fully alive, fully playing the game. Than sleepwalking through a life I never truly lived.

Living by.

Memento mori.

Carpe diem.

Amor fati.

Ikigai + mono no aware. 物の哀れ.

Wu wei + sho shin. 无为. 初心.